Some days feel like they will never end. Maybe because I spend so much time being lost. Not knowing what to do. What comes next. What will the future be... I'm a turmoil that doesn't stop. A storm that hit no walls. A wind that doesn't calm. A cloudy sky that know of no sun. A year of winter that have no spring, no summer, no warmth. No end, no answers.
At one point in my life I was very particular about everything. But once my dream of becoming an architect shattered, some piece of me must have been broken too, something important must have disappeared. After that I've had no interest, no motivation to find something new, to hold on to something and not let go. The me now will let go straight away if something start to slip away. I just have nothing I want to hold on to.
There are so many things I've wanted to become. I wanted to have a fun and exciting life. But now I've just... I want to live simple. I want a normal job with a bit of flexibility. I just want to live in a city I feel comfortable in. Have a dog. I just want a life, a future, something that is mine.
Mood: Weird
Music: Lost cause - Beck
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