Every year the sun leaves at november 21, turns on december 21, and returns on january 21. Leaving us in darkness for two months. It happens every year. Two months of darkness. For us it is also common knowledge that we have something that can only be translated into "the winter depression". Where all this darkness makes you feel heavy and sluggish and depressed. It happens to most everyone. It is common knowledge. Yet I forget about it every year.
Sometimes it will be a month into it when I remember. Remember that these are the toughest months of the year to get through. But since I am to different degrees depressed all around the year I never think of it as much different. So a month into the darkness I'll remember. That the depression I am feeling now is worse because of these dark months. Sometimes I won't remember until its january and you can see the sun just barely above the mountains. And I'll remember that is why it has been harder these two months.
You wake up in the morning and its dark. You leave for school or work and its dark. You come home and its dark. You go to bed and its dark. It happens gradually, you've lived with it for so many years, you hardly notice its happening again. Until you stop. Look at the calendar. Think about it for a minute or two.
The sun is so important. But it's always there so you forget about that. Until you're a month in and haven't seen daylight for 30 days.
It's unlikely I'll remember next year too.
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