Abandoned (english lyrics) - Jay Park

I remember the day
When you said to me
“Baby, I'm sorry but right now
That I just got to leave”
Then I remember you
Seeing you turn your back
Seeing you turn your back
Your lovely, lovely back, girl

How could you do me like that?
You were my world
You were my other half
You took my love and flushed it right down the drain
Now all I’m feeling is pain
And now there’s no way to save it

You’re the one who call it quits
And then just walked away
Every time I close my eyes
I could just picture your cold face
And the way you did me so wrong
It was like no other pain
I was madly in love with you
But you were just playing games

I'm usually the type to move on to the next one
Gone to the next one, but girl you’re the best one
Got me twisted, can't accept that you moved on
Girl, where have you gone, why’d your feelings go lukewarm?

I know you’re so bad for me
I’m in pain, but you just laugh at me
It’s such a tragedy
I want you back with me
Even though I know you’re bad for me

I know you’re so bad for me
I’m in pain, but you just laugh at me
It’s such a tragedy
I want you back with me
Even though I know you’re bad for me

You abandoned me straight up, like I was a warehouse
So there are a couple of things I wanted to air out

You taking that love from me
You don’t even have the common courtesy
To know that you’re hurting me
It’s so absurd to me
Baby, how could you just get up and leave?

A girl, a boy, and a graveyard - Jeremy Messersmith

Lucy takes the long way home
Meets me in a field of stone
She says; "I don't know how I'm supposed to feel
My body's cold, my guts are twisted steel

And I feel like I'm some kind of Frankenstein
Waiting for a shock to bring me back to life
But I don't want to spend my time
Waiting for lightning to strike"

So underneath the concrete sky
Lucy puts her hand in mine
She says; "Life's a game we're meant to lose.
But stick by me and I will stick by you

Cause I'm like a princess in a castle high
Waiting for a kiss to bring me back to life
But I don't want to spend my time
Waiting for just another guy"

Little bird - The Weepies

Sometimes it's hard to say even one thing true
When all eyes have turned aside
They used to talk to you
And people on the street seem to disapprove
So you keep moving away
And forget what you wanted to say

Little bird, little bird
Brush your gray wings on my head
Say what you said, say it again
They tell me I'm crazy
But you told me I'm golden

Sometimes it's hard to tell the truth from a lie
Nobody knows what's in the hold of your mind
We are all buildings and people inside
Never know who'll walk through the door
Is it someone that you've met before?

Little bird, little bird
Brush your gray wings on my head
Say what you said, say it again
They tell me I'm crazy
But you told me I'm golden

I know what I know
A wind in the trees
And a road that goes winding under
From here I see rain, I hear thunder
Somewhere there's sun, and you don't need a reason

Sometimes it's hard to find a way to keep on
Quiet weekends, holidays, you come undone
Open your window and look upon
All the kinds of alive you can be
Be still, be light, believe me

Little bird, little bird
Brush your gray wings on my head
Say what you said, say it again
They tell me I'm crazy
But you told me I'm golden

I'm golden

Death to death - Stars

Wide-eyed, grinning in the darkened room
Sipping cactus brandy from a china spoon
Coming in the morning in the afternoon, forgetting
So tired waiting for the end to come
Fully dead already, but forever young
Hello, my dearest father
It's your favourite son
There’s some things that I'm regretting

I am destroyer
I am lover
I am destroyer
I am lover
I love one thing
Destroy the other
I am destroyer
I am lover

A gypsy told my fortune then I told her hers
I said: "You'll die high in the mountains wrapped in silver furs
You'll be looking for your lover in the midnight sun
And you'll perish for your lover when the frost has begun"
I have a way of seeing and it's nearly gone
And nobody was listening so I wrote this song
And when you know the chorus you can sing along
You destroy the things you love
Even though you know it's wrong

I am destroyer
I am lover
I am destroyer
I am lover
Why love one thing and not the other?
I am destroyer
I am lover

I am destroyer
I am lover
I am destroyer
I am lover
Why love one thing and not the other?
I am destroyer
I am lover

I am destroyer
I am lover
I am destroyer
I am lover
And when I kiss I like to smother
I am destroyer
I am lover

Death to death

The more I feel, the more my heart gets worn out.

I'm sorry for being such a disappointment to you. I'm sorry for making you angry all the time. I'm sorry for not being good enough. I'm sorry for not ever gonna be good enough. I'm sorry for not being able to depend on anyone. I'm sorry for not knowing how to trust others. I'm sorry for being different. I'm sorry for not being what you want me to be. I'm sorry for being me. I'm sorry. I'm sorry. I'm sorry.

But how can I be good enough in your eyes? You have never had to struggle with things I struggle with. You're not stupid like I am stupid. You're not as bad of a person as I am. I'm sorry for being me, but what else can I be...? And of course I can never begin to meassure up to them. They're perfect, aren't they? Their life's are good and they don't fail and they are just fucking perfect.

There so many things I wish I could tell you. But there is no possible way you can tell someone like that "I don't want to live, but I don't want to die" without being looked upon as if you're crazy. I can't do anything right. I can't think right. I am barely able to get out of bed these days. Because I need a reason for doing things. I can't continue with this no matter what because I just don't see a reason to do it. I don't know who I am anymore and I don't want to continue living a lie. But I can't tell you this. How could I ever? I know that you try your best to understand that others might feel like this. That they might struggle with this. But you've never felt it. You've never had to go through it. How can you ever understand? Already am I a big disappointment, why would I make things worse? Sometimes I just really wish I'd jumped when I was a kid. And all of these burdens that I am, you'd never have to see them or have them around.

So yes. I smile and laugh in front of you. I'm just like that in front of everyone else. But the truth is something entirely different. If you saw everything of me, everyday, all day. You might have seen that I'm not myself... If there ever really have been something completely "me". I don't sleep as much as I did before. I find it hard to fall asleep at night. I've had more nightmares these 3,5 months than I had last year all together. I cry more than I have before, rarely for any specific reason. I haven't left the house much the last one-two months. I haven't been social in a long time. I only eat one meal a day, and maybe some fruit. Not always because I'm hungry, but because I can't cut out eating all together. You'd ask questions if I stopped eating dinner.

You always look at me like that. Like you could never be more disappointed. Sometimes I wish you'd see how hard I work and how much effort I put in. Every day I put in a hell lot of work to just keep on living. But you don't see that. You never do. Never will. And I'll never tell you anything. I can never tell you anything. I will always be a black sheep. A disappointment. Someone who is never good enough. Nothing. Nothing. Nothing. Nothing. To you I'll always be nothing.

Truly, I am, sorry...

Shelter - Corrinne May

What's wrong, what's getting you down?
Was it something I might have said?
You're walking around
With your head to the ground
And your eyes are watery red

I know you've been through tough times
Kicked around, thrown to the ground
But you've always been the strong one
So don't tell me that nobody gets you
Cause I'm standing in your corner
Knocking at your door
You don't have to be alone

Just call my name
Let me be an answer
Cause it hurts me to see you this way
I wanna ease your pain
Help me understand
Let me be your shelter, my friend

We share a bond
You and I, we belong
We're like coffee and morning trains
You strip my defenses
I catch your pretenses
The same blood runs through our veins

I swore I'd be your lifeline
Made a vow that I'd surround you with love at every milestone
I'll listen when nobody gets you
I'm still standing in your corner
Waiting by your door
You don't have to be all alone

Just call my name
Let me be an answer
Cause it hurts me to see you this way
I wanna ease your pain
Help me understand
Let me be your shelter, my friend

It was not too long ago
You sought to understand
You helped me mend
Remember when
So promise me you'll

Call my name
Let me be an answer
Cause it hurts me to see you this way
I wanna ease your pain
Help me understand
Let my be your shelter, my friend

My friend

MC Sniper, Outsider & Horan - Heart Disease

the more I feel
mameul sseulsurok

the more my heart
mami hejyeo

gets worn out
darhaga

Where'd you come from, you faded sign?

Some days I wish I lived in a big city where no one would know if I disappeared. Had I suddenly stopped coming to shcool or didn't hand in my assignments or didn't show up for work. No one would care and I could just end anything like that. Just like that I could have vanished.

Some days I'm terrified at the thought that I might one day disappear, and no one will notice or miss me. That no one will ask where I went or what happened to me. No one who'd try to call my phone a couple of twenty times. Or report me missing. That I could simply leave, and not a single person would know.

I'm just a cloud floating on the vast sky. My shape changes, a bit every second, a little every minute, a great deal every day. I'm strong sometimes, I'm nothing other times, I disappear and appear and I change. I'm just a loneley cloud that sometimes care and most times don't.