Ten more days under water
And I already know
I'll be fine
Ten more days til it's over
Til the darkness goes
And I see the light
I'm torn between
Fulfilling my wildest dreams
To satisfy the beast inside of me
And I grounded love
That raises me high above
The grabbing hands of cowards
And of thieves
Ten more days to find my way
Ten more days til I'm awake
Ten more days til I don't have to fight
I don't need a future king
There ain't a prayer that I could sing
Ten more days and I'm gonna make it right
You see my conscience betrayed me
But, baby, I'm strong enough to take the tides
The bed it trembles beneath me
But wherever the road is rough
You know I'll rise
I'm torn between
Fulfilling my wildest dreams
To satisfy the beast inside of me
And I grounded love
That raises me high above
The grabbing hands of cowards
And of thieves
Ten more days to find my way
Ten more days til I'm awake
Ten more days til I don't have to fight
I don't need a future king
There ain't a prayer that I could sing
Ten more days and I'm gonna make it right
Sunday, 13 March 2016
Saturday, 12 March 2016
Not sober - Maria Mena
It starts with a quiver
A thought provoked shiver
A fear I can't deliver
They don't need me
They don't need me
The comfort of my home
Now feels like a prison
My thoughts lacking reason
No one loves me
No one loves me
I am afraid of the dark
When I am alone with my thoughts
So here's to avoid falling apart
I'm not sober
I'm not sober
I'm not sober
I lie cause I'm shameful
My movement's weak, eyes dull
A complete loss of control
I'm a failure
I'm a failure
It's like taking a beating
Hung from the ceiling
Your fear is only your feeling
But it's painful
Why’s it painful?
I am afraid of the dark
When I am alone with my thoughts
So here's to avoid falling apart
I'm not sober
I'm not sober
I am afraid of the dark
When I am alone with my thoughts
So here's to avoid falling apart
I'm not sober
I'm not sober
It starts with a quiver
A thought provoked shiver
A fear I can't deliver
They don't need me
They don't need me
A thought provoked shiver
A fear I can't deliver
They don't need me
They don't need me
The comfort of my home
Now feels like a prison
My thoughts lacking reason
No one loves me
No one loves me
I am afraid of the dark
When I am alone with my thoughts
So here's to avoid falling apart
I'm not sober
I'm not sober
I'm not sober
I lie cause I'm shameful
My movement's weak, eyes dull
A complete loss of control
I'm a failure
I'm a failure
It's like taking a beating
Hung from the ceiling
Your fear is only your feeling
But it's painful
Why’s it painful?
I am afraid of the dark
When I am alone with my thoughts
So here's to avoid falling apart
I'm not sober
I'm not sober
I am afraid of the dark
When I am alone with my thoughts
So here's to avoid falling apart
I'm not sober
I'm not sober
It starts with a quiver
A thought provoked shiver
A fear I can't deliver
They don't need me
They don't need me
Confess - Maria Mena
You know what you did
You gave up on me long ago
But failed to let me know
I'm not over it
The fault not spread evenly
Made askew, by the one that leaves
Confess
The harder I try, the more I broke it
But you let me know too late
Confess
There’s a reason why my heart was open
You were afraid to close the gate
And you can't just stand there and wait
You have to meet me halfway
I took all the blame
I carried it willingly
The guilt almost killing me
Takes two to play this game
I need you to own up to it
That you should have called it quits
Confess
The harder I try, the more I broke it
But you let me know too late
Confess
There's a reason why my heart was open
You were afraid to close the gate
But you can't just stand there and wait
You have to meet me halfway
And before you move on
Admit you were wrong
Your rejection was silent, dear
I was you would have made it clear
Confess
The harder I try, the more I broke it
But you let me know too late
Confess
There’s a reason why my heart was open
You were afraid to close the gate
And you can't just stand there and wait
You have to meet me halfway
You gave up on me long ago
But failed to let me know
I'm not over it
The fault not spread evenly
Made askew, by the one that leaves
Confess
The harder I try, the more I broke it
But you let me know too late
Confess
There’s a reason why my heart was open
You were afraid to close the gate
And you can't just stand there and wait
You have to meet me halfway
I took all the blame
I carried it willingly
The guilt almost killing me
Takes two to play this game
I need you to own up to it
That you should have called it quits
Confess
The harder I try, the more I broke it
But you let me know too late
Confess
There's a reason why my heart was open
You were afraid to close the gate
But you can't just stand there and wait
You have to meet me halfway
And before you move on
Admit you were wrong
Your rejection was silent, dear
I was you would have made it clear
Confess
The harder I try, the more I broke it
But you let me know too late
Confess
There’s a reason why my heart was open
You were afraid to close the gate
And you can't just stand there and wait
You have to meet me halfway
Growing pains - Maria Mena
No one will tell you about the limit
They put on how long you can grieve
No one will warn you when you're winning
How heavy a lost love can be
They do not tell you about the friendships
You'll lose once the lights are dimmed down
How humble you feel about your past mess
Once the tables are turned round
But I wanna tell you I got through
The hardest of times on my own
I made some mistakes, I made a few
But I learned that I am strong
And just because it hurts
Doesn't mean it isn't worth it
And even if it stinks
It's just a temporary thing
I'm not saying that changing
Won't cost you love or make you cry
But it will all make sense
When the growing pains subside
Nothing can shield you from the silence
Nights spent on the side of the bed
Praying for help to please stop crying
My life just got turned on its head
They failed to explain how complex love is
Like why I mostly miss him as a friend
Or how big of a blow is for my ego
That she might be better for him
But I wanna tell you I got through
The hardest of times on my own
I made some mistakes, I made a few
But I learned that I am strong
And just because it hurts
Doesn't mean it isn't worth it
And even if it stinks
It's just a temporary thing
And no one said that changing
Won't cost you love or make you cry
But it will all make sense
When the growing pains subside
And just because it hurts
Doesn't mean it isn't worth it
And even if it stinks
It's just a temporary thing
And no one said that changing
Won't cost you love or make you cry
But it will all make sense
When the growing pains subside
They put on how long you can grieve
No one will warn you when you're winning
How heavy a lost love can be
They do not tell you about the friendships
You'll lose once the lights are dimmed down
How humble you feel about your past mess
Once the tables are turned round
But I wanna tell you I got through
The hardest of times on my own
I made some mistakes, I made a few
But I learned that I am strong
And just because it hurts
Doesn't mean it isn't worth it
And even if it stinks
It's just a temporary thing
I'm not saying that changing
Won't cost you love or make you cry
But it will all make sense
When the growing pains subside
Nothing can shield you from the silence
Nights spent on the side of the bed
Praying for help to please stop crying
My life just got turned on its head
They failed to explain how complex love is
Like why I mostly miss him as a friend
Or how big of a blow is for my ego
That she might be better for him
But I wanna tell you I got through
The hardest of times on my own
I made some mistakes, I made a few
But I learned that I am strong
And just because it hurts
Doesn't mean it isn't worth it
And even if it stinks
It's just a temporary thing
And no one said that changing
Won't cost you love or make you cry
But it will all make sense
When the growing pains subside
And just because it hurts
Doesn't mean it isn't worth it
And even if it stinks
It's just a temporary thing
And no one said that changing
Won't cost you love or make you cry
But it will all make sense
When the growing pains subside
Bend till I break - Maria Mena
We're in a bind
Borrowed time, you were not mine
But I don't mind cause I live on scraps
Until you come back, until you react
I'll make sure that you see how much I can take
I'll bend and I'll bend till I break
Till you see how much I can take
I'll bend and I'll bend till I break
I'll bend and I'll bend till I break
Take what you need
Undress me, I want you to see
How you make me feel completely alone
When you are gone, is that what you want?
Does that turn you on, to see how much I can take?
I'll bend and I'll bend till I break
Till you see how much I can take
Yes, I'll bend and I'll bend till I break
I'll bend and I'll bend till I break
I wait for you
Killing time
Just see how much I can take
I'll bend and I'll bend till I break
Till you see how much I can take
Yes, I'll bend and I'll bend till I break
I'll bend and I'll bend till I break
I'll bend and I'll bend till I break
I'll bend and I'll bend till I break
Borrowed time, you were not mine
But I don't mind cause I live on scraps
Until you come back, until you react
I'll make sure that you see how much I can take
I'll bend and I'll bend till I break
Till you see how much I can take
I'll bend and I'll bend till I break
I'll bend and I'll bend till I break
Take what you need
Undress me, I want you to see
How you make me feel completely alone
When you are gone, is that what you want?
Does that turn you on, to see how much I can take?
I'll bend and I'll bend till I break
Till you see how much I can take
Yes, I'll bend and I'll bend till I break
I'll bend and I'll bend till I break
I wait for you
Killing time
Just see how much I can take
I'll bend and I'll bend till I break
Till you see how much I can take
Yes, I'll bend and I'll bend till I break
I'll bend and I'll bend till I break
I'll bend and I'll bend till I break
I'll bend and I'll bend till I break
Where I come from - Maria Mena
Temper, looks like a bomb went off my side of the room
Simple, say you fell and you hurt yourself, pick up the glass up, get the broom
You're tired, it's time to realize we’re not wired the same and that is why
When we argue we rarely come back from it with whole souls
We talk like they talked where I come from
We fight like they fought where I come from
And I'd rather be alone
Than end up inside a home like the one I come from
Used to pity the lovers who claimed they'd grown apart
Lately I've played with the thought of getting out, a brand new start
Cause I'm tired, it's time to realize we’re not wired the same and that is why
When we argue we rarely come back from it with whole souls
We talk like they talked where I come from
We fight like they fought where I come from
And I'd rather be alone
Than end up inside a home like the one I come from
Simple, say you fell and you hurt yourself, pick up the glass up, get the broom
You're tired, it's time to realize we’re not wired the same and that is why
When we argue we rarely come back from it with whole souls
We talk like they talked where I come from
We fight like they fought where I come from
And I'd rather be alone
Than end up inside a home like the one I come from
Used to pity the lovers who claimed they'd grown apart
Lately I've played with the thought of getting out, a brand new start
Cause I'm tired, it's time to realize we’re not wired the same and that is why
When we argue we rarely come back from it with whole souls
We talk like they talked where I come from
We fight like they fought where I come from
And I'd rather be alone
Than end up inside a home like the one I come from
Good and bad - Maria Mena
(Both good and bad)
The one who screams the loudest
Whoever holds the torch
(Both good and bad)
Owns the room, captures the audience
Gets the attention, both good and bad
(Both good and bad)
I never claimed to be flawless
I owned up to my faults
Yours were subtle painful betrayal
But I see what you did, both good and bad
There's two sides to our story
And mine gets all the fame
I frolic in the glory
And buckle in the shame
I see what I did, I see what you did
I see what we did, both good and bad
I see what I did, I see what you did
I see what we did, both good and bad
Good and bad
We're both in pain one morning
Something that once made sense
(Both good and bad)
And it is tempting to distribute blame
But let's see what we did, both good and bad
I really tried my hardest
I did the best I could
With what I knew then, I know better now
Cause I see what I did, both good and bad
And there's two sides to our story
And mine gets all the fame
I frolic in the glory
And buckle in the shame
I see what I did, I see what you did
I see what we did, both good and bad
I see what I did, I see what you did
I see what we did, both good and bad
Good and bad
We're both in pain one morning
Something that once made sense
And it is tempting to distribute blame
But let's see what we did, both good and bad
There's two sides to our story
And mine gets all the fame
I frolic in the glory
And buckle in the shame
I see what I did, I see what you did
I see what we did, both good and bad
I see what I did, I see what you did
I see what we did, both good and bad
Good and bad
The one who screams the loudest
Whoever holds the torch
(Both good and bad)
Owns the room, captures the audience
Gets the attention, both good and bad
(Both good and bad)
I never claimed to be flawless
I owned up to my faults
Yours were subtle painful betrayal
But I see what you did, both good and bad
There's two sides to our story
And mine gets all the fame
I frolic in the glory
And buckle in the shame
I see what I did, I see what you did
I see what we did, both good and bad
I see what I did, I see what you did
I see what we did, both good and bad
Good and bad
We're both in pain one morning
Something that once made sense
(Both good and bad)
And it is tempting to distribute blame
But let's see what we did, both good and bad
I really tried my hardest
I did the best I could
With what I knew then, I know better now
Cause I see what I did, both good and bad
And there's two sides to our story
And mine gets all the fame
I frolic in the glory
And buckle in the shame
I see what I did, I see what you did
I see what we did, both good and bad
I see what I did, I see what you did
I see what we did, both good and bad
Good and bad
We're both in pain one morning
Something that once made sense
And it is tempting to distribute blame
But let's see what we did, both good and bad
There's two sides to our story
And mine gets all the fame
I frolic in the glory
And buckle in the shame
I see what I did, I see what you did
I see what we did, both good and bad
I see what I did, I see what you did
I see what we did, both good and bad
Good and bad
I don't wanna see you with her - Maria Mena
It's a small town
Word gets around
And travels in circles
Through hoops over hurdles
Everyone’s careless
They talk about our mess
They don't care how it hurts me
Must think it was easy
They say you have a new love
I'm happy for you, love
I just don't wanna meet her
Are you gonna keep her?
Cause I don't wanna see you with her
I don't wanna see her face
Resting in your embrace
Feet standing in my place
I don't wanna see you've moved on
I don't think that I'm that strong
It hasn't been that long
Since I was the one in your arm
I don't like being sober
That's when it hits me it's over
Although it was my choice
I can't shake your calm voice
Saying you've found one
That makes you feel as strong
And helps you through hard times
Cause that job was once mine
They say you have a new love
I'm happy for you, love
I just don't wanna meet her
Are you gonna keep her?
Cause I don't wanna see you with her
I don't wanna see her face
Resting in your embrace
Feet standing in my place
Cause I don't wanna see you've moved on
I don't think that I'm that strong
It hasn't been that long
Since I was the one in your arm
I don't wanna see you with her
I don't wanna see you with her
Cause I don't wanna see you with her
I don't wanna see her face
Resting in your embrace
Feet standing in my place
I don't wanna see you've moved on
I don't think that I'm that strong
It hasn't been that long
Since I was the one in your arm
Cause I don't wanna see you with her
Word gets around
And travels in circles
Through hoops over hurdles
Everyone’s careless
They talk about our mess
They don't care how it hurts me
Must think it was easy
They say you have a new love
I'm happy for you, love
I just don't wanna meet her
Are you gonna keep her?
Cause I don't wanna see you with her
I don't wanna see her face
Resting in your embrace
Feet standing in my place
I don't wanna see you've moved on
I don't think that I'm that strong
It hasn't been that long
Since I was the one in your arm
I don't like being sober
That's when it hits me it's over
Although it was my choice
I can't shake your calm voice
Saying you've found one
That makes you feel as strong
And helps you through hard times
Cause that job was once mine
They say you have a new love
I'm happy for you, love
I just don't wanna meet her
Are you gonna keep her?
Cause I don't wanna see you with her
I don't wanna see her face
Resting in your embrace
Feet standing in my place
Cause I don't wanna see you've moved on
I don't think that I'm that strong
It hasn't been that long
Since I was the one in your arm
I don't wanna see you with her
I don't wanna see you with her
Cause I don't wanna see you with her
I don't wanna see her face
Resting in your embrace
Feet standing in my place
I don't wanna see you've moved on
I don't think that I'm that strong
It hasn't been that long
Since I was the one in your arm
Cause I don't wanna see you with her
Leaving you - Maria Mena
I couldn't accept we were ending
I gradually started to drift
In the back of my mind was pretending
That I could handle it
I couldn't handle it
Just wanted a moment of silence
Not everything ending in war
The tiniest problems may giant
What were we fighting for?
What are we fighting for?
What I'm about to say
Won't be easy to swallow
What you felt today
Will be as painful tomorrow
Painful tomorrow
Painful tomorrow
It's enough, it's enough
It's enough for me
It's enough, it's enough, it's enough
Please, you gotta see
I'm leaving you, you
I'm leaving you, you
You're okay, you're okay
You're okay without me
Comes a day, comes a day
Comes a day that I'm convinced that you'll agree
That I'm leaving you, you
Leaving you, you
I wouldn't thought I could carry
The weight of us all by myself
Our differences just wouldn't marry
I had to beg for help
Got it from someone else
What I'm about to say
Won't be easy to swallow
What you felt today
Will be as painful tomorrow
Painful tomorrow
Painful tomorrow
It's enough, it's enough
It's enough for me
It's enough, it's enough, it's enough
Please, you gotta see
I'm leaving you, you
I'm leaving you, you
You're okay, you're okay
You're okay without me
Comes a day, comes a day
Comes a day that I'm convinced that you'll agree
That I'm leaving you, you
Leaving you, you
I gradually started to drift
In the back of my mind was pretending
That I could handle it
I couldn't handle it
Just wanted a moment of silence
Not everything ending in war
The tiniest problems may giant
What were we fighting for?
What are we fighting for?
What I'm about to say
Won't be easy to swallow
What you felt today
Will be as painful tomorrow
Painful tomorrow
Painful tomorrow
It's enough, it's enough
It's enough for me
It's enough, it's enough, it's enough
Please, you gotta see
I'm leaving you, you
I'm leaving you, you
You're okay, you're okay
You're okay without me
Comes a day, comes a day
Comes a day that I'm convinced that you'll agree
That I'm leaving you, you
Leaving you, you
I wouldn't thought I could carry
The weight of us all by myself
Our differences just wouldn't marry
I had to beg for help
Got it from someone else
What I'm about to say
Won't be easy to swallow
What you felt today
Will be as painful tomorrow
Painful tomorrow
Painful tomorrow
It's enough, it's enough
It's enough for me
It's enough, it's enough, it's enough
Please, you gotta see
I'm leaving you, you
I'm leaving you, you
You're okay, you're okay
You're okay without me
Comes a day, comes a day
Comes a day that I'm convinced that you'll agree
That I'm leaving you, you
Leaving you, you
Good God - Maria Mena
Good God, what have I done?
Gone and left the only one
That ever really, truly, deeply loved me
Honestly, how stupid could I be?
My poor heart your demons want
You turned dark, picked out a gun
In the incapable hands of your master
Down worth spiral, bound for disaster
I am sorry
Please forgive me
I am sorry
We're not where we thought we'd be
Where we thought we'd be
Good God, I have regrets
Was too hard, I couldn't forget
And this love for me was much like a fathers
Mandatory care for daughter
I am sorry
Please forgive me
I am sorry
We're not where we thought we'd be
Where we thought we'd be
I am sorry
Please forgive me
I am sorry
We're not where we thought we'd be
Where we thought we'd be
Things end
From lovers to friends
I'll call him
When this painful part ends
When I felt every possible motion
Cried enough to fill up an ocean
Gone and left the only one
That ever really, truly, deeply loved me
Honestly, how stupid could I be?
My poor heart your demons want
You turned dark, picked out a gun
In the incapable hands of your master
Down worth spiral, bound for disaster
I am sorry
Please forgive me
I am sorry
We're not where we thought we'd be
Where we thought we'd be
Good God, I have regrets
Was too hard, I couldn't forget
And this love for me was much like a fathers
Mandatory care for daughter
I am sorry
Please forgive me
I am sorry
We're not where we thought we'd be
Where we thought we'd be
I am sorry
Please forgive me
I am sorry
We're not where we thought we'd be
Where we thought we'd be
Things end
From lovers to friends
I'll call him
When this painful part ends
When I felt every possible motion
Cried enough to fill up an ocean
Love is a losing game - Sam Smith
For you I was a flame
Love is a losing game
Five story fire as you came
Love is a losing game
One I wish I never played
Oh, what a mess we made
And now the final frame
Love is a losing game
Played out by the band
Love is a losing hand
More than I could stand
Love is a losing hand
Self professed, profound
Til the chips were down
Know you're a gambling man
Love is a losing hand
And though I batted blind
Love is a fate resigned
Memories mar my mind
Love is a fate resigned
Over futile odds
And laughed at by the gods
And now the final frame
Love is a losing game
Love is a losing game
Five story fire as you came
Love is a losing game
One I wish I never played
Oh, what a mess we made
And now the final frame
Love is a losing game
Played out by the band
Love is a losing hand
More than I could stand
Love is a losing hand
Self professed, profound
Til the chips were down
Know you're a gambling man
Love is a losing hand
And though I batted blind
Love is a fate resigned
Memories mar my mind
Love is a fate resigned
Over futile odds
And laughed at by the gods
And now the final frame
Love is a losing game
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